There will come a moment in every persons life where they know what they want,and they want it to happen now.no,its not when you're 5 years old.that feeling actually comes back when you're older.
recently,I had a 'pang' of realisation of what i really want.its a far fetch but then it is easy if i just work hard enough.yes,I'm talking about studies.gosh,keep up will you.
not only that,but you would have this bar of expectation for you,your friends,family and whoever crosses your mind.
As for me,my expectation of myself is put at the highest scale.i think everybody does that to themselves.as for my friends,some passed the scale,some just wander around it.but for this certain person,its possible to overpass the scale and even be the lowest in the scale.
maybe i'm thinking too much about this,but somehow when you create a boundary with somebody,they could actually feel it,even though they choose to ignore it.
i could ignore the boundary,but the thought of wasting is always too hard to handle.I was fine this morning;felt INFINITE somehow.but now,when the thinking starts,you realised that maybe it was just your imagination.
I mean who lets a girl go back on her own!
i have to cool things off because i'm meeting with the person again on monday.
but i guess there must be a reason.maybe i'm not suppose to be too happy because i might just loose concentration.that's legit!hmph.
we'll just see what happens on monday then.
