post-result reaction

and results are finally in.all I can say is that i got more than a 3 pointer but didn't make it to the dean list.i'm thankful and I expected such result,but disappointed at the same time when I see other people scoring higher.
I guess I just wanted to make my parents proud and that they can rest assure that their daugther has a bright future.The responsibility of being the first child is too much.

My holidays turn out to be pretty swell actually.I got to spend it with my family mostly and also with my close friends.Sadly,I didn't go Arab to see my bestfriend though.darn u expensive flight ticket.btw,i'm skyping with her now.haha.this is how i spend my valentine day.

unfortunately,her internet bailed on her.so we got to talk for 3 hours tops.missing you hanim!anyways,my holidays went a little bit like this.
besides stressing out,my holiday went a bit like this:

 went out with my classmates from 5 Melur.

went to sunway lagoon for rm50 with iman and farisha.accidently,met ieqa there.

that was the best time,because how often do you suddenly bump into your dearest friends.plus,the London Boys put ona fantastic show!the one that you could never forget.

hang out with aifa,ju and syaza at darusalam at ss15.that was one of the craziest time because everything came out.from stressing about finals to talking about shows like 'skins'.haha

this ieqa again.went disco skating with her,together with sharifah at subang avenue disco skating

when lean means everything

today marks the end of the first week of second sem of year one in UM.it was quite a long week.
as usual, being back there feels like being back in school. everyone started hugging each other and exchanging smiles to welcome each other back. However, our lecturer didn't get the memo. hence, she welcomed us back with our first assignment.awesome!*sarcasm*

the rest of the days passed slowly.went out with hus,jazli,brandon and joe for dinner.it was really a time of revealing each others feelings,worries,achievement and determination for this sem.

besides that, there was a marathon run yesterday, and I won third!wohoo!somehow that run really boosted my self-confidence a bit.really need it now. as for the 2nd week, I hope everything turns out well.I have to meet up with my PA which is my advisor.I hope he goes easy on me.

and i really hope whatever i planned out for this week goes out as planned.cause one slip mistake can cause a havoc!

for now,all i know is,I have started to trust that everything that happens to us has a good reason because Allah loves us.and he won't try to 'susahkan hambanya'.I guess if its fate,its fate.will write about this fate when I re-confirm the event.

As for now,study as hard and as smart as einstein.Watch 'I Miss You'(awesome drama!) and read Mitch Alborn's book and exercise to release some stress. Exams comes once in a lifetime,it goes the same for life.SO DON'T WASTE IT!

when maths problem are easy to solve

I have at least one week left before my holidays are over.and let me tell you,when you have a lot of time in your hand,you tend to over speculate things.
I start thinking of where I am instead of where I need to be.
Now,I understand who actually will be there for me in future,and who are just passing by in my life.
So,instead of mopping around,I think I better set some stuff straight here.

Priority list
what do I need to do?
-study for my P examination
-try out something new
-loose weight&tone body
-get active
-be friend a lot of people
-keep in touch with my friends

so far,this is the list I have compile.will add it up if I need more.

luckily I have these girls to cheer me up.sigh.disco skating was awesome!

when you understand life through movies

the past few days had been all about movies.
first was a thai movie which is "friendship never dies"

truth to be told, the only reason why I watched it was because Mario Maurer was starring in it.

and somehow it ended up to be a pretty good movie.besides the cheesy friendship lines of course.I had to overlook that.

after seeing this movie,it got me thinking,am I a good friend to my friends?can I or do I actually help them in their time of need?do my friends and I treat each other or consider each other to be people we confide in?and where do I actually stand in a fight?the last question kept me thinking because one of my friends asked me that during class.

 

besides friendship and standing up for yourself and your friends.I also learned one other thing, I really have to shape up if I want to fight.haha.

 

the next movie that I watched was 'The Perks of Being A Wallflower'.and yes,the reason I wanted to watched this was because there were two of my favourite actor and actress in here.

Logan Lerman and Emma Watson.

 


The story was mind blowing.I mean it was really about life and all.there was this one quote from the movie that really stand out,'we all deserve the love we think we deserve'.That is true.If not,why do yu see some people don't leave their obnoxious or abussive partners.

I rarely think deep about life.but when I do,its really scary.I mean all those meanings and feelings.but hey,if you don't stop and smell the flowers,or you don't take a step back and observe,you would never treasure the things you have now.

So,I take this two movies as a lesson that,all of us have to do the best we can to live.I'll end my post with a few quotes from the movie.till then,i'll have to go venture the world so that I can write them here.

“Even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.” 

 

“And in this moment, I swear we were infinte”

turning point

Honestly,I found my rage,now to find my serenity.

eventually for this week,its all about the turning point.Instead of being the one that usually takes a step back and analyse the change,I was the one experienceing the change.

I just got my unofficial results.I was grateful,but as usual you would always have that lingering feeling that you are capable to do better. But looking at ligther note,I guess this is the kind of drive that I need.Tomorrow is the day we choose our subjects for sem 2.Hope I would choose the right subjects.

Besides that,I had been re-connecting with my friends.because ever since universiti started I was torn away from social activities.The excitement of seeing them again and just laughing it off is the fun part.Everybody has changed since the last time I saw them.Both in experience and background.

They say people that are close to you tend to hurt you.Its either they can't tell a simple truth or they just can't lie properly.Usually,when I say 'lets meet up and watch something together'.I actually mean,you better wait for me if you want to watch this or give me a heads up.But then,I guess you guys are individuals,and you think that's the best way to go about it.

One thing I learn though,I have to really disconnect myself from the social media.and that I should use it or check it if I get notifications.

There's this saying that I learnt recently from X-Men:First Class that was quaoted by Charles Xavier; "true focus lies between rage and serenity".



Seriously,who wouldn't take in what charles xavier if he looks like this.

 


unless he looks like this

then its a different matter.haha.oh well,now time to plan on what I need to do and what I need to research.

Now,this is my second turning point.Lets make the best of it to curb it :D